Grazing Rites

It seems my recent adventure in interviewing wasn’t all for naught after all. It was also not what I thought. The exercise was exactly that, an exercise. Given the speed at which the dominoes fell after the decision was handed down the outcome was assured before the process began. While by no means a certainty, let’s for the moment assume this is the case.

Then why go through the process? Procedure wasn’t followed for the dominoes that fell after so it couldn’t be due process. Perhaps then the appearance of same? The conclusion is nearly inescapable, they humoured us.

But what then of recent behavior? Such effort being expelled to ensure I understand my worth? The constant assurance of a bright future? The meetings with my superiors? The cryptic advice from my boss to look at my current position as a learning opportunity before returning whence I came?

Hints have been dropped that while the process was largely a front there was one thing they weren’t counting on. Yes, they expected me to apply but it seems they never thought I’d do so well. In fact given that I apparently had someone on the inside lobbying for my interview, at the risk of sounding immodest, the point of the whole exercise may very well have been me.

I was the only X factor. Everything and everyone else was known, including the outcome it would seem. I was a mystery. Apparently my actions and methods had long been a source of confusion and consternation. It seems my advocate had a negative view of me but given recent successes and professionalism in my new post, to say nothing of bringing a department under budget for the first time in history, put this individual in the mood to re-assess his opinion of me.

What was I thinking? What was the logic behind what I did? How much was me and how much was policy dictated from above? Who am I? What do I want? Where am I going? What am I capable of? But mostly the Why’s, the motivations, and the philosophy.

Apparently I turned the negative view completely around. A detractor became a supporter.

Alright, that was all part of the plan, why is this news?

Multiple signs seem to indicate this story isn’t finished yet. it may not even be on hold. Opinion in some quarters is that things could drastically change for me as soon as weeks from now. All a direct consequence of my interview it would seem.

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