Grazing Rites

So my interview for the position I have no chance at getting is set for Monday afternoon. Why are they bothering I wonder? Why weren’t internal applicants pre-screened? I figured I’d get a pre-screen to humour me and then a polite if awkward conversation explaining why my application wouldn’t be forwarded. But this, this is totally different.

A panel interview.

I knew one day this would happen. In fact I foresaw much of recent events YEARS ago. A full-time year-round version of the job I always wanted, a panel interview in the boardroom…exactly as I foresaw. Well, maybe not exactly. The cast of characters is completely different. The likelihood of me getting the position is drastically lower than I predicted all those years ago.

Every important interview I’ve gone for I prepped as if it were a panel, thus I was always relieved when it wasn’t. But not this time.

My inner 16-year-old is having a heart attack.

The rest of me is struggling to see this in pragmatic terms.

I’m not going to get it and part of me, a very small part, doesn’t want it. That said if it’s offered I don’t care who I have to step on, disappoint, or betray to get it. Good thing it won’t come to that. But how do I play this? Nothing’s a one shot deal with a company you’ve spent over a decade at and see no reason to ever leave. You have to play the long game.

For example what do I say if they ask “What makes you think you’re the best candidate for the job?” Do I try the unconventional honesty thing or do I play the interview game?

What do I listen to in order to focus and harness the chi?

Why do I subject myself to this?

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