GS Is Where Your Heart Is
In the 11th year of our fair a wish from years passed was granted. An evil man was cut down in a way I predicted leaving a vacuum and leading to the creation of a position I had always wished for. But of course, every rose has it’s thorns and few wishes are what they seem.
For one it appears the evil man had been in the midst of reforming his ways. Not that it forgives past crimes but it makes the victory a little less sweet. What’s worse, it appears he was cut down in much the same way he used to cut down others.
How can I celebrate a positive outcome achieved using methods I abhor?
But the story can’t end there. For one the entire cause of recent events is still largely unknown. But more than that the void must be filled.
A position I have wanted since I was 16. I owe it to myself, myself of the past and multiple versions of myself throughout the years. But what of now? Do I really want a position with longer hours, more stress, and greater responsibility that would take me away from my family?
Who am I kidding, the answer to that question has always been yes.
Well, so long as the cause is just.
Perhaps fortunately there is in fact no decision to be made. Another person more qualified, with greater experience, whom I respect has also applied. It would be lunacy for her not to get it.
So why bother applying? For one if I didn’t my 16 year old self, through sheer force of will, would travel through time and kick my ass. There’s also that old saying about bewaring contentment. By applying I am sending a sign to higher ups that my ambition has not been quenched.
Will it ever? I leave that discussion for another day.
I advised my current boss before applying, partly out of courtesy and respect but mostly to make it clear that I am in no way unhappy with my current position. But every time I think about just staying where I am I hear Admiral Hansen’s voice in my head…
“There are a lot of young hotshots like Shelby on their way up. Riker could suddenly look like he’s standing still next to them. He’s hurting his career by staying put. If I were you, I’d kick him in the rear end for his own good.”
Where would I be if that episode had never been written?
Poor Michael Pillar, the world is a darker place now that you’ve left it.
But practical matters aside I was given pause when upon being informed of my intention to apply my current boss came back with “I know GS is where your heart is”
How can I argue with that? 9 years and an adopted family how can that not be true? Calvin and Elisa were at my university graduation for god’s sake! I dated Eleana for 2 years. The list goes on.
I hope no one thinks that I don’t think of myself as a part of my new-ish team and department, I certainly do. I wouldn’t dare compare the two but that said, there is a lot of history in GS.
